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Hehehe...In fairness cute nitong Tag challenge dear. Medyo lampas yata sa 10.Miss you! God bless!

iNsTrUcTiOnS: Name ten (10) of life's simple pleasures that you like the most, then pick ten (10) people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not to use things that someone else has already used.

10.Travel. Pamasahe lang ang dala, yet marami na ang adventure na nangyari.

9.Tumambay sa National Bookstore,bili ng book,magazine or raw material for my arts and crafts.

8.Mabigyan ng chocolates with nuts!pwede na ring chocnuts. hahaha...naalala ko nun, naiyak ako sa sobrang tuwa kasi dumating pinsan ko and mabigyan ng tsokolate, M&Ms w/Peanuts and Snickers.

7. Magbasa ng mga natapos ko ng prayer journals and high light mga quotes na nagawa ko sa sobrang senti with God.

6.Read childrens book with pictures.hehehe...

5. White roses,fireworks,love letters,star gaze in any province.hehehe

4. Arts and Craft time with my bestfriend, pwede rin mag join ang may gusto.

3.Makabili ng books,magazine, bags,any of my interests at a very low price. Yung tipong love gift na lang sa may ari ang ibabayad sa kanya. (I got Health mag for Php 25.00, Road Less Travelled from P500+ to P150 lang, Adidas big Shoulder bag worth a thousand pesos for P20.00.hehehe)

2.Heart to heart talks with kindred spirits

1.Know that I am loved.

I pass the ball to..

1. Tarits
2. Mommy Hannah
3. Mommy Chiri
4. Lady Timbrelsgreen
5. Bluestar_beauty
6. Ark
7. Johanna
8. Ate Mide
9. Billy
10. Karl

I remember...

What would you do on a Sunday rainy afternoon? Me, memories flashing back...some of these are:

• Intayin si Ate Jo sa terminal ng Jam Station sa Buendia,maiwan na last trip sa Lemery, bumiyahe puntang Lipa,pagbaba ay parang walang hinahabol na oras at kumain sa chowking at our own pace, paglabas ay saktong may Bus papuntang Lemery. Should we be late, sa kalye kami magpapaumaga.Pero hindi. God is just right in time. Sobrang hele kami as we travel for pre-camp time sa LCDC2K4.
• I remember na nakaheart to heart talk ko agad si Kit from the first time we met sa Bataan LCDC2K2.
• Miss ko na ang bonding/jamming namin sa banyo ni Tarits sa mga songs na may voice na may parts.She sings the alto part,me, the soprano. hehehe..
• First time ko maivite nun as an ISCF junior counselor summer 2K3. Hahaha..ang first assignment ko ay ang mag turo sa card making workshop. And dakilang assistant sa lahat ng bagay. which is so ok.
• First time to realize I can't do what I'm supposed to do (which is to be an "ate" to the young ones) and realizing its an honor to serve the Lord and nakakatakot at the same time. Sobrang iyak ko nung ISCF precamp worship time.
• Worship Night nung IVCF LCDC2K4. We are a broken people giving our all and humblest worhip to the Author and Finisher of our faith. WE REALLY STAND IN AWE IN HIM DURING THAT TIME.And we are never the same after that.
• IVCF LCDC2K5.Is the best LCDC for me. Not because sobrang ganda ng camp, but it was the camp I saw the Lord moved in each and every one and in the whole camp. His hand was upon us.We are humbled that it was really His work.When our strength is pushed to the limits, His grace abounds and we can all say This is Him who works.
• MLC EXEC2K5 Q.T. Together in Mt. Gethsemane Tower Q.T. room. Haay...dito ko mas minahal ang MLC people and MLC ministry, how the Lord has gathered us and worhip Him in our thankfulness and tireness. Amazing how the Lord is working in and through us during this camp.
• Camp Praise and Prayer Times. Mapa ISCF,IVCF-LCDC, KC Praise and prayer times makes me human and never fails to make me cry. Sobrang overwhelming, minsan wala na maipanalangin, iiyak na lang sa Lord. Sobrang amazing ang umawit ng papuri sa umaga kasama ng kapaligiran na kay ganda ng gawa ng Manlilikha.
• Ang mainvite na Camp Artist sa ISCF LCDC2K6.Hesitant ako, but this is God's way for me to share my hidden talent.hehehe...
• Worship time with Highschoolers in LCDC2K6. It never enough.I miss the time worhipping God in our brokeness, hiya, hesitancy,and Moses syndrome.haha
• Iyakan namin ni Ida.hehehe...I really love this sister of mine.I thank and Praise God for her life.
• Kawayan Camp moments. paano ko makakalimutan ito? No. 1 taga gulo ng buhay. Hehehe...anyways, I became more human, or even, this is just a haven of rest, for the rest of my life ay maalis at maalis ako sa comfort zone ko.
• KC Missions experience: tumambling ako literary and left me swollen right knee due to Missions jouney and difficulty assimilation.feeling ko nga sa laki ng maga sa tuhod ko ay magkakacancer ako.hahaha...Hindi ako nakajoin sa worship time, Ate cheery joined me in weeping.I really wept very hard.
• Pinaiyak ako sa song ni Karl nung worship time nung LCDC. Grr..but the Worship song is really good.
• I realized that we are "first hand-student missionaries" in school. That makes my KC experience freaky.hehehe...
• Good byes are the hardest. Hindi pa rin yata graceful ang IVCF on good byes.Pero ok lang. Atleast we have something to look forward to, after ungraceful goodbyes.

Marami pa iba, I believe I will remember it soon. But also, I remember my Lord's faithfulness and my kapalpakan. Still he loves me. Salamat.

Pa-Ampon

Lord,

Sana may family na mag-ampon sa akin in my present state. Ano kaya ang feeling na ako naman ang inaampon? Marami ako "kapatid sa labas" by my family's choice. And I myself, in a sense ay nagkaroon ng anak, kaya lang ngayon nilayo siya sa akin.Hmm... ngayon kaya Lord sino aampon sa akin? You know my needs Lord. I believe you will answer that in Your own time.

Still, thank you for people you are placing in my life. Bless them as they blesses me.

Thank you Lord. for you are my Lord and you are in control.

I love you.

I LOVE YOU

Akala ko manhid na ako...or wala na ako matututunan sa buhay. Still, The Lord is letting me learn. In tears. To be human once again, to learn to love, and fall in love with Him, til it hurts.

The core of my existence is to worship my Savior. Kaya lang minsan, it will be put to the test. Ang hirap pala.Nakakatakot. Feeling ko hindi ako papasa.

I want to give my Lord the best. Kaya lang minsan, my best is not good enough. Parang hindi papasa sa kahit na anong standards. Praise Him, he reminded me na all He wants is not my accomplishments,credentials or what I attained, He desires me to be His child who is willing to have bonding with Him, to cry to Him, and desire His presence always.

I remember my heartfelt prayers. Nung mga oras na sinabi ko yung mga prayers na iyon, umiiyak ako. Kasi nakakatakot kaya yung hinihingi ko. Bakit kasi yun ang pinagpray ko? Kasi nga, MAHAL KO SIYA.simple as that but it not seem to be that simple.

This is the dose of my prayer. Nyaknyak...konti pa lang ba ito?!? malamang.

Pero I'm still thankful. Kasi connect ako sa aking humanity and existence. Tao pa rin ako. Marunong pa rin ako umiyak.

This is worshipping in Brokenness.

I love YOU.

Trying To be nice

Nah, what I read, being "nice" is "being stupid" kaya trying to be kind na lang.Last saturday, medyo sumakit ang ulo ko sa mga truths na I have to re-learn right away. Thanks for the gentle rebuke of mommy chiri.

I will re-learn to be kind and to be patient again to people I can't understand.

I'm also re-learning to connect to people who unconsciously "hurted" me. I'm not doing this kasi kaya ko, but because this is what Jesus wants me to do.He'll give me strength to obey.

***sigh***

Missing a Secured life

I'm missing my secured moments. Basta...feeling ko ngayon I'm so vulnerable. Anytime magbebreak down. I'm also feeling na hindi enough ang mga efforts ko. I don't desire for affirmation. I desire for security. Kung wala as of now, have no choice.This is what I chose. Intay lang ng konti... UWIAN NA...bakit kasi ang tagal-tagal.

I have no one to talk to...kawawa naman ang makakarinig ng kwento ko.

Gusto ko bumalik sa Gethsemane Prayer Mountain!!!!

MAAWA KA...

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Sana masurvive ko ito...

May reporting ako. Still I'm not ready. Sana masurvive ko ngayung araw. Ayaw ko na nasa ibang lugar kapag malakas ang ulan. I hate it, especially when I'm in school during rainy days. May trauma na ako na mastranded anywhere other than home. haay....

PROVE THEM

Di pa raw kasi ako naiin-love kaya ganito ako, Parang sabi ng friend ko na nirerefute sya nang sinabi nya sa iba na "You become wise from learning from your mistakes, but you are wiser if you learn from others mistakes"...hindi sila naniniwala sa kanya.

Parang ganun din ako ngayon.Ibang anggulo nga lang." Hindi ka pa kasi na-iinlove kaya mo nasasabi yan..." ay utang na loob! yeah, I may be wrong sa mga pasaway na side comments ko kanina, but my whole point is, (which, they didn't gave me the chance to speak up 'coz they "know" more) When you said GOODBYE,GOODBYE NA. wala nang balikan. grr...pakialaman ba lovelife ng may lovelife. Also,bumabalik kung sino ang love mo.If the person is really is a JESUS FREAK,SOBRANG IN LOVE KAY JESUS,PATI ANG MAIN-LOVE SA TAO AY BINUBUNO AT HINIHINGI PA SA DIYOS. AT HINDI MAGPAPAKATANGA AT MAGPAPABUNTIS.

sO, FOR SHORT, Hindi nakakatulong ang mga remarks nila...Nakakainis

NAG GIGRIEVE LANG KASI ANG HEART KO SA MGA YOUTH WHO MADE THE OLDIES THINK THAT WAY. BUT I BLAME THE OLDIES DIN IN A WAY NA THEY DIDN'T MAKE THE EFFORT TO REACH OUT TO THESE YOUTH NA SINASABI NA MAAGA MAGLANDI. AND THEY HAVE THE NERVES NA SABIHIN NA "A...GANITO TALAGA KAYONG KABATAAN....BLAH...BLAH..."

MASAKIT.THEY DON'T CARE.

KAYA FOR YOU CHRISTIAN YOUTH OUT THERE...MGA JESUS FREAK, PROVE THOSE OLDIES (OR YUNG PESSIMISTIC AT HINDI NAKAKATUWANG SPIRIT NA MERON SILA) THEY ARE WRONG.

I KNOW WE CAN ONLY STAY PURE BY GOD'S GRACE.

LET YOUR LIFE SHOW WHO'S IN CONTROL. REACH OUT...LET US NOT COMMIT THE SAME MISTAKES AGAIN.LET US MAKE JESUS SMILE.

DUMB CONVERSATION

What do you get from talking to an old lady with a fixed mind and an old maid who only believes what she is seeing?You get a DUMB CONVERSATION. I'm not saying that they are DUMB. what makes the whole thing DUMB was that their minds are closed and they are sold out in what they believe.

They won't listen. Perhaps, I can sense that they won't listen to what I will say, and the whole situation turned out to be that I'm the looser.

I don't know. Although they won't listen, I know in my heart that what the Bible says is true than believing the reality that's happening.

Sakit lang sa ulo. But I have to set my self free.

So, I rented 4 vcds to soothe my soul. Ayaw ko ng kausap pag galit ako.I may release anger sa makikinig.kawawa naman sila pag magkataon. Besides, sometimes I'm tired of myself hearing same old hang-ups again. thanks to techie...on the other hand, I need money.hehehe...

Reminders to Self...

Lorah, you need to be extra kulit.discern alibis, know your ground, demand what is good,YOUR AUTHORITY IS FROM AND THROUGH THE ONE WHO PLACED YOU THERE.

Don't easily be intimidated.Be intrinsically motivated by your Master.

Live Life eachday.Creatively.

Problems are ment to be solved and Prayed for.Not to think over.

Filter every info you receive.Strain through God's Word.

Be a Friend.But don't compromise what the TRUTH says.

Rest. Have time for your self.

Pray through.

Affirm.Look at the good of the people.

Manage your time. Sacrifice is inevitable.

Sabi ng mga ate, Take it easy...relax.

Be inlove to the One who promised and will always be faithful.

Lord...help.

I need Grace

I don't blame anybody...maybe for one...Myself.

I just feel so alone.

I'm with people but they seem so distant.

Or maybe its just me.

I don't know what to say.

I don't bother people who doesn't care...

I desire for people who love the Lord.

My inner circle are away...I don't know if I'm welcome to somebody's life.

I need grace. I need miracle.