December Posts

December 17, 2005
Amazing Race...
My schedule was so jammed packed.partida whole day ko...
till 3am ang kwentuhan namin ni Bes-Jen...
10:00am-2:30pm @ Ida's place, nagpaka busy-busyhan ako sa counselors' treat.

Between 3:00-5:00pm, amazing race kami ni Sherry together with Karl,Rein and Jhun papunta sa bahay namin,pag-grocery for the Christmas outreach,at pagtungo sa Antipolo.

5:00-9:00pm nauna na sila nagstart sa outreach,late kami dumating pero nakapag bonding kami with the street kids, sina Sherry,Always,Anne, Franz at Joel ang kasama ko at sa place ni Tala kami nag outreach. It was so much fun, humbling and meaningful fellowship with the kids at sa mga churchmates ni Tala.

11:00pm I arrived home na.

Bukas,after church,punta yata kami sa pacita sa Laguna,manonood ng Cantata then sa Monday magpapaka busy-busyhan ako sa Anniversary at Christmas fellowship ng Life Change. Wala naman ako pera, pero bakit ganito ako ka-busy? hehehe...oh well...

Uuwi na lang ako, uminit pa ang ulo ko kasi walang nagsundo sa akin.
*Asar ako kasi kaya ko naman umuwi ng mag isa,kailangan ko pa ng sundo.
*Ayaw ko kasi nag-iintay sa mga bagay na kaya ko namang gawin.
*Kapag nagpasundo ako at walang nagsundo,makes me feel inferior. nababanas talaga ako.dapat sa ibang route na lang ako dumaan mag isa without anybody's help.
*Kapag late ang pagsundo,naiirita rin ako,lalo pa pag maaga naman ako magtext para magpasundo. ayaw ko mag ulit ng text,sayang sa load.nakakabwisit.
*Dapat kasi may sarili na akong car,hindi na ako nababanas.
*What is due to me. Very particular ako sa ganito. This is not being selfish,this is being just to myself. Kailangan ko kunin ang mga THINGS THAT IS DUE TO ME.I am serving other people,pero kapag feeling ko hindi ko nakikita ang mga bagay na due to me, nababanas rin talaga ako.
Basta,the whole point is,kung hindi ako kayang sunduin,magtext kaagad at hindi yung nag-iintay ako sa wala.

Sige...bukas ko na lang iboblog ang kilig moments ko....

December 05, 2005
Sinisingil na ako ng health ko...
Bad...Sinisingil na ako ng health ko. ang aking size ay hindi na kaya ng aking bones. kailangan na talaga mag loose ng weight. so help me God. Help me people. I want to be a good testimony even sa aking weight. And I want to live a healthy life kasi I am following the Lord and eventually will follow Him in a place He will lead me. Help me. thank you.

December Posts

December 17, 2005
Amazing Race...
My schedule was so jammed packed.partida whole day ko...
till 3am ang kwentuhan namin ni Bes-Jen...
10:00am-2:30pm @ Ida's place, nagpaka busy-busyhan ako sa counselors' treat.

Between 3:00-5:00pm, amazing race kami ni Sherry together with Karl,Rein and Jhun papunta sa bahay namin,pag-grocery for the Christmas outreach,at pagtungo sa Antipolo.

5:00-9:00pm nauna na sila nagstart sa outreach,late kami dumating pero nakapag bonding kami with the street kids, sina Sherry,Always,Anne, Franz at Joel ang kasama ko at sa place ni Tala kami nag outreach. It was so much fun, humbling and meaningful fellowship with the kids at sa mga churchmates ni Tala.

11:00pm I arrived home na.

Bukas,after church,punta yata kami sa pacita sa Laguna,manonood ng Cantata then sa Monday magpapaka busy-busyhan ako sa Anniversary at Christmas fellowship ng Life Change. Wala naman ako pera, pero bakit ganito ako ka-busy? hehehe...oh well...

Uuwi na lang ako, uminit pa ang ulo ko kasi walang nagsundo sa akin.
*Asar ako kasi kaya ko naman umuwi ng mag isa,kailangan ko pa ng sundo.
*Ayaw ko kasi nag-iintay sa mga bagay na kaya ko namang gawin.
*Kapag nagpasundo ako at walang nagsundo,makes me feel inferior. nababanas talaga ako.dapat sa ibang route na lang ako dumaan mag isa without anybody's help.
*Kapag late ang pagsundo,naiirita rin ako,lalo pa pag maaga naman ako magtext para magpasundo. ayaw ko mag ulit ng text,sayang sa load.nakakabwisit.
*Dapat kasi may sarili na akong car,hindi na ako nababanas.
*What is due to me. Very particular ako sa ganito. This is not being selfish,this is being just to myself. Kailangan ko kunin ang mga THINGS THAT IS DUE TO ME.I am serving other people,pero kapag feeling ko hindi ko nakikita ang mga bagay na due to me, nababanas rin talaga ako.
Basta,the whole point is,kung hindi ako kayang sunduin,magtext kaagad at hindi yung nag-iintay ako sa wala.

Sige...bukas ko na lang iboblog ang kilig moments ko....

December 05, 2005
Sinisingil na ako ng health ko...
Bad...Sinisingil na ako ng health ko. ang aking size ay hindi na kaya ng aking bones. kailangan na talaga mag loose ng weight. so help me God. Help me people. I want to be a good testimony even sa aking weight. And I want to live a healthy life kasi I am following the Lord and eventually will follow Him in a place He will lead me. Help me. thank you.

November 27, 2005
Missionaries have special place in my heart.Ü
Grabe talaga ang Lord magpaoverwhelm and mag challenge. Just when I am giving up to the reality's deception, His TRUTH always prevails.Muntik na akong masanay sa mga taong complacent. na so-so lang ang buhay pagtitiwala sa Diyos, nakakahawa pala yun.Muntik na akong maniwala at mahawa...nakakatakot! and i just remember that my greatest fear is to become the person I hated the most. A complacent person who no longer sees God work in his life, a person who became apathetic due to life's injustices and hopelessness. I hate those kinds of people,I also fear I might become one.yikes!
I love nanay...I can see her passion and she has one of a kind gift. A gift of giving.Generous giving. She gives to the men and women of God, to the missionaries. For me, having missionary in our home is a great privelege,it is like once again seeing Jesus in the flesh. Their first-hand story of God's faithfulness makes me teary-eyed. I treat them as celebrities, they are worth to be admired, to be treated special, to honor and to immitate.
Tatay Jesse came last saturday,3am. He is our guest speaker for the last sunday of our Missions Month.He is fondly called Kuya Jesse by my mother. He was her counselor during her Kawayan Camp '75. He is from Bacolod,serve as an IVCF Staff for 11 years and eventually led by the Lord to be a church planter, missionary in the cold mountains of Ifugao for 24 years. Just knowing his roots and what he is doing right now is what I called really a major cultue change, or as IVCF puts it, he went cross-cultural. Now, He is 60 years old with a youthful heart offered to the Lord and with a wisdom endured from experience, from loving God's word,His presence and His people. Having a short chit-chat with him is so precious for me. He is a man who really loves his Lord and the people whom the Lord led him to minister
He has a pure heart seeing the unseen. He has a grateful spirit that encourages those who give to him in the Lord to faithfully continue what they are doing. Through His life radiates a life who dies for his Master everyday and experiencing His love.
I desire to experience and to gain what he have, but I know it is costly. I am deeply humbled seeing his life.
Thank You tatay Jesse for living faithfully and for loving wholeheartedly our Lord and Savior. You challenge me to love my Jesus more and more in my youth. I want to visit you...I want to see what path you have taken. Just wait for us. we love you.
Missionaries have special place in my heart.

November 20, 2005
A Glimpse of You...
You Just make me smile.wala lang. Am just enjoying your presence...

November 10, 2005
rich and the poor
The Lord calls us to have compassion for the poor. Yet, the elite also needs the saving grace of our Lord...how can I reach out to these kinds of people?!? how?!? how?!? argh..teach me Lord.

October Posts

October 29, 2005
SHARE KO LANG
TIRED.
CULTURE-SHOCKED.
ENJOYED FELLOWSHIP OF BELIEVERS.
AWED BY GOD'S MIGHTY DEEDS.
THANKFUL OF HIS TRANSFORMING POWER.
WHAT AN HONOR TO SERVE THE KING OF KINGS!
AMEN.

October 12, 2005
kahit ngarag...
excited na ako for lcdc!!!
waaahhh
kahit ngarag dahil may mga final papers pang ginagawa,all i can say mga tumutulong is,
GOD BLESS YOU
and i really mean it.
love you guys!the best talaga kayo.

October 11, 2005
Retreat After All of these
I desire to have a retreat after the camp, After catering other people.
I think I have become a martha...doing things for the King but i know in my heart i have so many shortcomings to my Lord.
I hope a family would adopt for the meantime as i have a retreat.
I am praying for one now. I hope they would open their doors for me.
I want to be with You Lord.I want to be with You...

October 06, 2005
Kuya TeddyÜ
During one of our casual talks...
Lorah: "Ate Jo, palagay mo ba friends kami ni kuya Tedz?"
Ate Jo: "Oo naman...diba na-hug ka na nya?"
Lorah: "Ha?!?kelan? nakalimutan ko na."
Ate Jo:"Nung naiyak ka dahil sa nangyari kay Ron,na-hug ka ni kuya Teddy..."
Lorah: "palagay mo? friends na kmi?"
Ate Jo: "knowing kuya Teddy? yun ba e yayakap ng kung sinu-sino lang? hindi noh.syempre sa mga taong close na nya."
Lorah: "Tahimik kasi si kuya.Pero sensible naman ang kwentuhan namin.Baka kasi ako lang ang may feeling na friends kami. Kasi diba,may mga taong close ako, tas,di ko alam ako lang pala nag-aassume nun."
Ate Jo: "oo nga. gets kita.pero,iba si kuya Tedz diba?"
Lorah "oo nga...I agree...Ü"
Wala lang. After this October,Kuya will follow the Lord as He will take the responsibility as a pastor of their church in Muntinlupa.All I can say is Kuya is Unique.hehehe...at mas naappreciate ko ang diversity ng personalities ng mga ivcf staff.It is not a cliche talaga na may certain ugali ang dapat nasa staff work.hehehe...
Sabi ko kanina Kuya has different personalities. He can be a male counterpart of Elisabeth Elliot as he writes through his blog.Parang pinaghehele ang readers. so gentle writer. Sa personal naman, pwedeng tahimik,pero kung nasa mood ay pwede ring mangulit! and most of all, and the exciting part is, ibang iba siya when he speaks and exhort God's word.Sobrang passionate, nakakachallenge.nakakapang-gising (or baka sa amin lang yun?hehehe...joke)
I pray the Lord will continue to bless him at sana maipagpatuloy parin ang communication sa aming mga students. Yun nga. tahimik kasi minsan talaga ni kuya, pero pag magkwento naman ay walang humpay. I hope friends nga talaga kami.hehehe...
Kuya Tedz. God bless you abundantly.

October 03, 2005
thoughts sa Lovelife nila
yari na...may mga lovelife na sila. Wala naman akong problema sa mga lovelife nila, pero nalulungkot lang ako kasi feeling ko, hindi naman nila pinag-isipan ang pag kakaroon ng commitment, isa pang nalulungkot ako, kasi di nila magrasp na kelangan kasama si Lord sa mga lovelife nila.or isa pa,kasi hindi ko friend ang mga lovelife nila.
Yung isa nga e...iba kung makatitig ang guy sa akin. parang kukunin ko ang girl friend nya.parang gusto ako awayin!nyahaha...feeling.
nakakainis.nakakalungkot.

September 25, 2005 Song from the heart
Make Me a Servant

Make me a servant

humble and meek

Lord let me lift up

Those who are weak

and may the Prayer

of my heart always be

Make me a servant,

Make me a servant

Make me a servant today

oh! how i missed Psalty and his songs.I am just reminded that the Psalty songs also molded my character.I wish kids who sings in church will keep in their hearts the true meaning of the songs and soon the Lord will use the songs for His glory.Ü

September 22, 2005Kilig rin pala...
hehehe...masaya rin pala man trip at magkwentuhan ng imaginary lovelife with nanay.try nyo! saya!Ü

September 21, 2005 Smile
They smiled at me.I thank God for that wonderful sincere smiles. i may not know what they are going through,but I know God is working in them.I hope we could have more time to know each other, i hope i could hear their personal stories upclose and personal.Highschool.So vulnerable,yet a fertile ground to share God's love.I'm honored to be their ate. I continue to pray to have more opportunities to know them...and to serve them.Their smile is the best reward I just received. Thank God for simple yet rewarding prize.Ü

September 18, 2005
Giving back to the Giver of Good gifts
Aalis na naman isang taong malapit sa buhay ko. Babalik raw siya next year, but things will never be the same again. Ang pag alis nya signifies maiba na ang lahat.I will still be a dear sister to her,and she will always be my ate. I will not be able to hug her anymore,we will not be able to exchange kilig stories and foodtrip in our home like we used to.Hindi lang ito ang unang pag let go ko, maraming beses na. Pero same pa rin ang sakit. You are like letting go of a very beautiful bird and let it fly to be free. I have learned to love and now it is time to let go.In times like this,though it hurts, I thank my Lord.I thank Jesus I have the capacity to love and I have experienced meaningful time with a special person.Hurt means I loved.Ate will forever part in my life.The Lord gave her to me, now it is time to give her back again to the Giver of good gifts.Thank God for technology though. Malayo man, malapit din.ÜGrabe napatahan ako ni Paolo Valenciano sa concert nila ni Gary V. Hehehe... I wonder if i would cry this hard if ever i have a boyfriend?!? hahahaha! oh well...

SEEING JESUS IN THE FLESH

Have I seen Jesus? Is He a myth? a Great teacher? A miracle worker? He is just more than that. For me He is my God, Sovereign Lord, Creator whom I adore, Afather, a loving Father, an ultimate Bestfriend who understand and a Savior who saved and found me when was lost. He lived and died and ressurrected two thousand years ago, but who is the one I saw Jesus in the flesh? They just walk, commute, interact in the city without being noticed, they just do their thing. But they make their day special by offering their day to the Lord, living a life selflessly and making a stand for justice. The world may think they're not special, they will be just a statistics when time comes, but what makes them special is that they are the children of the King of Kings. The Jesus I saw in the flesh are the people who made an impact in my life. They spend time knowing and understanding me, they too, are hurting but would not let their hurt rule their lives. Jesus Christ lives in them, they have experienced a meaningful life with Him and they desire to share this life they have experienced. They too are humans, but they choose to believe and be men and women of hope in these hopeless times. Jesus Christ will soon come again,He promised so. But I also see Jesus in the flesh in the form of these people who made me believe that there is a God who cares, who loves and changes lives. And you are one of them. I do not blaspheme, the Lord knows my heart. Jesus in the flesh reminds me of the real King of Kings and Lord of Lords who will reign forever and ever. Jesus Christ the Messiah, the Son of the Living God. Thank you for coming into my life. I love you. The Lord bless you and keep you, The Lord make His face to shine upon you and give you peace. To God be the Glory forevermore.

September 17, 2005Arggh!!!

bakit ang yabang mo? nakakainis! parang utang na loob ko pa. Sana maintindihan pa kita,sana ayusin rin ng Lord ugali mo.Sana bigyan pa ako ng patience...

Reflections on Servanthood

entry ko sa Manila Leaders' Chronicle...

I only encountered the word servant or servanthood up close and personal through the ministry of IVCF.Servant hood. A very unpopular word. An uncomfortable word, an uncomfortable thing to do. Yet as I continue to grow in grace and knowledge on how big God’s love for me through His son Jesus Christ, servanthood is one of the requirements in following Him.Jesus Christ is the best example of servanthood. He explicitly lived a life of a servant, a servant of humanity. Though He may chose to live like a King, He had done otherwise to teach us to live like Him.

Our Savior came to live like a servant because He was the one who first reached out to us.We are challenged to be a student witness for the Gospel, to share the gift of salvation through Jesus Christ alone and to live an authentic life following our Lord. I believe we can reach out and touch lives by being a servant to our Lord Jesus Christ, then our service to others will follow.

Being a servant is not an easy task. It is bittersweet. I can say that I still hadn’t learn enough. I still have issues about myself that hinders me to serve others. But as one of the staff reminded us, “Patay sa Sarili”. It stricken me really hard. Being a servant is being dead to self and live for Christ. And also a reminder for me. as I reflect on the verse:“Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake (Jesus) will find it.” Matthew 10:39I have found a meaningful life with Christ. I cannot afford just to keep it to myself. Sharing this life I found requires sacrifice on my part, I may still have my issues but the God whom I’m serving is faithful. I ‘m so awed on how He is teaching me and giving me the privilege to serve Him. To serve the King of Kings! I’m a servant. I may not be perfect, but He will finish His work in me. Someday, I desire to hear from Jesus the sweet word, “ Well done! My good and faithful servant” How would you want the Lord call you someday?

September 15, 2005the Child in Me

I love to think about life...to ponder things. But there are also the other side of me,the CHILD IN ME. I still love Disneyland! waaahhh....someday.Someday...i'll be there with my loved ones. Yun lang. i just wanna say, I LOVE dISNEY

September 12, 2005 Answered prayer from unexpected people
actually di ko naman prayer yun...pero wish ko lang sa heart ko yun. And i got my heart's desire from unexpected people. Salamat and I'm sorry.Kasi sila ang natataken forgranted ko. Mali talaga ako. Kaya sa mga taong feeling nila e nakakalimutan ko sila. Sorry, di ko sila nalilimutan. Tendency ko lang ang lumayo.But i do not mean that. Salamat sa inyo. Pagpalain kayo.Salamat ulit

September 07, 2005 Birthday

The Lord really blessed me this day.I'm blessed sa mga pagbati, texts, at emails. Basta, ansaya. haayyy...masaya talaga ako pwamis.hmm...pero sabi ni mommy cherry, In Denial pa rin ako. yeah...i admit. i'm in denial. haha!yun lang muna.

September Posts

September 01, 2005
KC nostalgia
ewan ko kagabi, pero hindi ako makatulog. the memories of cool night breeze of Sibonga and the glittering stars make me missed my KC experience so much. Haaayyy...ganito na ba ito? I'm always saying that i had a very good fellowship with God's creation there,(kasi more than the people, i guess the place is one of the things i won't see much) pero i must admit, I MISS MY WHOLE KC EXPERIENCE. Napakabuti ng Lord noh? akalain mong may pakulo ang tao na iconfine ka for a month sa isang campsite tapos you will never be the same again?hehehe... i guess, ito dapat ang challenge ng magkKC. its a whole new experience, but they must also be prepared for the cost(ang matorture sa pagkamiss sa mga kaKC,sa Place,Worship Tym,Maging INSTANT LEADER SA CHURCH AND SA CAMPUS-hehehe...)
Pero wala naman akong pinagsisihan. The Lord made me realize things and be overwhelmed to the richness of His Truth. WISH KO LANG!WISH KO LANG TALAGA,Makaattend ang mga inaalagaan namin sa KC.
Oh well, i may miss my KC,But I pray yung mga na-promise namin or our heart's desire for the Lord will continue to burn in our hearts and do naman our part for Him.
Thank you Lord...all i can say is THANK YOU.

August Posts

August 29, 2005
haaayyy...
haaay...gusto nyo malaman ang masayang magugong happenings ko last sunday night? tanungin nyo na lang si ate jo. haha!panalo talaga yun. mas lalo ko naapreciate ang buhay.
mommy che and ate jo, pasensya na ha...kung nadamay kayo sa akin.halagang P1.50 lang tayo.nyaknyak...pero naappreciate ko talaga my time to be with you. God bless you abundantly sa mga work nyo. konti na lang, i will join you. hehehe...Love ko talaga kayo...
what if tayo talaga till the end? hmm... i dunno.
thank you for being with me.God bless you.

August 23, 2005
Things are making sense...
thank God!!! konti na lang!!! sana wala pasok sa monday! for our survival. haay...
on the other hand, miss ko na siya....haaay.

August 19, 2005
W hen God banged me to the wall
yup. this is what i can describe my whole week. The Lord really banged me to the wall. Where He removed my other source of securities that takes His place. I even woke up miserable and wish to end my day in my day without attending class or worst, i want to end up dead...and meet Him.(i guess this' just me, sobra kung ma depressed) Hehehe...
This is what the Lord wants me to do. To see my hopelessness without Him. He reminded me that i may look like ok with Him, but He still knows my heart. His love endures.
Thank You Lord for restoring me. continue to break me, til you can work through me.
*congratz sa cicf! yahoo! hahaha! alam nating lahat na hindi natin ineexpect ang awards natin this organization week. thank you sa support. Praise God for His favor.Ü

August 15, 2005
Tampo
haay, nagtatampo talaga ako ngayun. promise. nakakainis! grr!

August 07, 2005
Obsession...and Things before i die
wish ko lang talaga, may magbigay sa akin ng Painting na masterpiece nila kahit ako na lang ang magpa-frame. kelan kaya magiging dream come true ito?!? please lang!
i also need inspiration. thank God for ate Sharon's workshop on creativity.sana magkaroon ako ng time to release my creative juices.
things I want to do before I die...
*Do what the Lord wants me to be.
*To know and evaluate what I did is all worth it. And i made my life worth living.
*To see a soul turn to Christ and see amazing change in His life.
*To see important people who backslid in the faith to turn to Christ.
*To see my church raise up to the challenge, be a true disciples of Jesus, and reach out to their own Samaria and ends of the earth.
*have my own garden,library and Art studio (take note, i dont dream for a house...ito lang ang mga gusto ko)
*Ma-tour ang buong Pilipinas. Bonus na lang if i have the chance to see the world.And marvel God's creation, and eventually, paint or make an art from it.
*Mag paint. do arts
*Mag paaral ng taong may noble na pangarap sa buhay and make a change to his life.
*have learnings on society and share Christ to the community at the same time develop it.

so far ito muna...marami pa e. Basta, gusto ko ng masterpiece! Thank God for the Arts!

Dreams
"we must learn to read our times.." these are the words ate Cheery told us during our Student Leaders' Retreat. Yeah... I am hearing people who are beginning to be desperate and find their hopes in afternoon shows and singing contests.
I find the Filipino now as a very competent person and would do his very best to fulfill his dream. But my question is, what is his dream? when i studied Filipino psychology last year, it was a thought that the Filipino has still hasn't moved on to the next level. he is still trapped to fulfill his basic needs, to give his family a hearty meal or a decent life. on the other hand, the Filipino is also hungry for fame, affirmation or even just recognition,so he tries to win contests and get a jackpot prize. I'm not saying that joining contest is bad, but it seems that his dreams just revolves to winning the contest and that makes my heart break.
there is more to life.
it is just a small voice to say that only in Dying to self to follow the way of the CROSS can we only find life. And dying to self is a daily process. This is the truth. but not all know this or even bother to know this. But our hope is in Jesus Christ. they must know Him.
But, do we care? we are also disillusioned to our own cares and humiliation that sometimes we cease to reach out to these people. We read our times, we need to respond. we need to touch hearts and make an impact to somebody's life. Money is not all there is.
I'm also asking myself how?!? arrggh!!!it always make my head ache if i can not find answers. But You oh God is always there. open our eyes, our hearts...may we be a bearer of hope and light.
Break us Father... Break me.

August 03, 2005
Environment friendly :D
i am planning to join an environmental organization. I've been thinking about it two weeks now. I guess, I'll join Haribon. After i visited my province last summer, i was so amazed on the trees and fresh air. It was indeed a break for me. But now I'm in the city again, the pollution is killing me. I don't know, but my desire now is to be pro-active. I need to do something. Last May, i started a compost where i put dried left overs and soon be a fertilizer.
I remeber when i was three years old my mother inculcated to us to never throw any trash on the road may it bee the tiniest candy wrapper. Now, I still have that habbit, and I'm disgusted whenever I see people litter everwhere.
Also, my environmental perspective broaden when I took Environment and Society. My professor was so passionate and so pro-active when it comes to conserve nature and to have healthy lifestyle. She even took us to a retreat house in Tagaytay where the treesare cultivated naturally, without any chemicals.
I told ate Chriri about my idea of joining Haribon. She told me " ok yun, para may Christian sa Haribon." Also, in one discussion of kuya Nono a while ago in our Bible study was, God created Adam to take care of creation. boy, that statement hit me really hard! and lastly, I'm also planning to read, "Heaven is not my Home" to broaden my perspective about the environment. I also desire to read environmental books.
The Lord is teaching me to be a Christian in all aspects of my being. He is also the Lord of the environment. And everytime I admire the nature and worship my personal God as the God of nature, I must and will do my part of conserving it.
Hmm..I hope I could think of ideas to lessen the garbage and to educate people on how to take care of our environment. And I still have to raise P500 for the membership fee.So help me God.

post ko dito yung mga pinost ko sa kabilang blog...

June 23, 2005
SHE DID IT AGAIN...
HAAAYYY....MURA! ANG INABOT KO...HAHA! yeah. second time around. i don't care sinong may kasalanan, am I worth the curse? maybe...i dunno. it just hurts.

June 22, 2005
KUNG BADTRIP...BADTRIP TALAGA...
mahal na ang pamasahe...
trapik...
hindi pa matino ang schedule sa course ko...
dissolved ang major subjects na kailangan ko...kung hindi man, magbabayad pa ng additional, dahil tutorial na lang ang magiging status...
magulong kausap ang department..thinking na sila dapat ang gumawa ng solution sa problema (pwede naman ako magvolunteer, pero lalabas na atribida ako...hehehe)
NANAKAWAN NG SLING BAG WITH TICLER AND WALLET INSIDE (ANG MASAKIT,NANDUN MGA MEMORABILIAS, PIX AND CARDS KO NA MAY MGA POINTS NA!!!!sana lang talaga...kahit yun maibalik)
MALAKAS ANG ULAN
what a day!!!talu-talo na talaga...nung nanakawan ako, feeling ko, may suspect ako...sana mali ako.Pero hindi ako galit. UPSET lang. sana ibalik nya ang wallet ko tsaka mga cards...kanya na lang ang money.
a...ewan,pero tahimik lang ako. i didn't ask why. I just felt sad. feeling ko kasi, ang tanga tanga ko. i really mourned for that loss.salamat sa mga taong nakinig at nakisympatya sa akin.
grabe, for a moment,nadepress ako. just proves na may attachment nga ako sa gamit na yun.
i also learned na i'm under God's mercy.Bad things may happen to "good" people,ika nga ng friend ko, but love parin ako ng Lord. yun lang pow.
thanks friends! love you!

June 11, 2005
Something I got from email
This is something worth sharing.... Have a nice day! THE GREATEST ADVICE Don't date because you are desperate. Don't marry because you are miserable. Don't have kids because you think your genes are superior. Don't philander because you think you are irresistible. Don't associate with people you can't trust. Don't cheat. Don't lie. Don't pretend. Don't dictate because you are smarter. Don't demand because you are stronger. Don't sleep around because you think you are old enough and know better. Don't hurt your kids because loving them is harder. Don't sell yourself, your family, or your ideals. Don't stagnate.! Don't regress. Don't live in the past. Time can't bring anything or anyone back. Don't put your life on hold for possibly Mr/Mrs Right. Don't throw your life away on absolutely Mr Wrong because your biological clock is ticking. Learn a new skill. Find a new friend. Start a new career. Sometimes, there is no race to be won. Only a price to be paid for some of life's more hasty decisions. To terminate your loneliness, reach out to the homeless. To feed your nurturing instincts, care for the needy. To fulfill your parenting fantasies, get a puppy. Don't bring another life into this world for all the wrong reasons. To make yourself happy, pursue your passions and be the best of what you can be. Simplify your life. Take away the clutter. Get rid of destructive elements: abusive friends, nasty habits, and dangerous liaisons. Don't abandon your responsibilities but don't overdose on duty. Don't live life recklessly without thought and feeling for your family. Be true to yourself. Don't commit when you are not ready. Don't keep others waiting needlessly. Go on that trip. Don't postpone it. Say those words. Don't let the moment pass. Do what you have to, even at society's scorn. Write poetry. Love Deeply. Walk barefoot. Dance with wild abandon. Cry at the movies. Take care of yourself. Don't wait for someone to take care of you. You light up your life. You drive yourself to your destination. No one completes you - except YOU. It is true that life does not get easier with age. It only gets more challenging. Don't be afraid. Don't lose your capacity to love. Pursue your passions. Live your dreams. Don't lose faith in your God. Don't grow old. Just grow YOU! When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your life that you'll never get back. Your time is your life. That is why the greatest gift you can give someone is your time. Relationships take time and effort, and the best way to spell love is T-I-M-E because the essence of love is not what we think or do or provide for others, but how much we give of ourselves. --Rick Warren, The Purpose Driven Life
haha! I remember some people I know who are desperate to find a partner, or , another way around, married or already have kids at a very early age. This kind of news really makes my heart break.
The Lord Jesus Christ prepared a LIFE for us, only if we loose our lives for Him. And having a married life is not the end point...its just a beginning of obeying God together.
Besides, LIFE WORTH LIVING IS A LIFE LIVED FOR GOD. If we realize how much God gave and endured for us, we can't do anything but OBEY.
Of course, everybody wants to end up in a happy ending. I have also seen people who waited for God, and had an abundant life. Not that they became rich or had romantic life together, but they have a life that seeks and obeys the Lord.
Oh well, ‘nuff said. God bless us all.

June 07, 2005
And She Will be Loved
Haayyy....dear.
kahit kailan, panalo talaga ang pagdedetach mo. mahal ka naman namin. natatakot ka lang...kahit kami,nilalayuan mo. Kaya kahit ganyan ka,kahit pagtaguan mo kmi,mahal ka pa rin namin. we rejoice with you when you are happy, and we wish you always the best. Sana,isama mo rin kami sa sorrows mo. Nandito kami. kahit ang circumstance ang mapagpahiwalay sa atin,always remember na minahal ka namin. and we will always love you.
Get over it...hindi habang buhay biglaan ang pag good bye mo sa amin. hindi ganun. I (we)admit you have a strong personality, but you must have people whom you can trust, other than God.
You are loved...We love you. The Lord knows your heart. we are here for you.
Basta...pakita ka na..

June 06, 2005
Pasukan Anxiety...
haayyy...I'm having this kind of anxiety again. I thank God he gave me wonderful three years in college. But now, i know this is another challenge fo me. I always see myself not that grown up girl that should be called "ate", but a follower. Now that my friends from the upper batch are already graduates, i must endure the challenge to be looked up to...and this includes responsibility.
I just need Spiritual Retreat...I just really need one.
May others see Christ in me...as i boast of my weaknesses.

June 05, 2005
Letting Go...
test...