smile...

Hahaha! Ang GALING!GALING!GALING! talaga ni God! He really knows how to make me smile.medyo na lessen ang stress ko. He is teaching me to wait,to live life and appreciate people who loves me. Thanks "mare" for being happy for me.hehehe...we need to celebrate!






magiging girl din ako someday...magkakaroon yun ng kaganapan.hahahaha!!!!

C.I.C.F. meeting

Please pray for wisdom,enthusiam and willingness to serve as we have our planning in our school fellowship.Campus Impact Christian Fellowship. Later at 7:30 pm til tommorow lunch time. Thanks!

On Forgiveness

Napaka buti ng Lord. Alam niya kung kailan lalabas ang alburuto ko, a.k.a. issues, He helps me get away with it gracefully.He loves me. And I am very much aware of what is happening to me. That time, I was so angry with him I resolve not to talk to him anymore. Besides, feeling ko lahat naman ng sasabihin nya kasinungalingan, and He may not consider me a friend in the first place. So, bakit ko sasayangin oras ko sa kanya? But I know in my heart that what I'm thinking was not right. I will be enslaved with my own selfish thoughts.Pero pinalipas muna ito ng Lord. He dealt with me last night until midnight in a gentle manner.

That moment time na naiinis ako,namasyal muna ako sa mall of Asia with group of new friends. I hope they continue to know the Lord. Then, between me and my God, I know I have to forgive. If not, maliit na lang ang tingin ko sa kanya-sa kanila. And that is bad for my health.

Besides,mahal ko ang Lord ko, i desire no one to hinder our relationship.Haay...May I continue to see people the way my Lord sees them.

How can you be?

How can you be a servant in the midst of glitze and glamour of fame?

please answer this...just wondering...

Monday Stress

Stressed na ako.Wala pa subjects available for a graduating like me.Pasaway kasi ang department.walang sistema..ayun,feeling ko, lalagnatin ako.haayyy...

aryt...hindi ko naman madadala ang subjects ko sa kabaong. so dapat, I learn to relax...

ok lorah, value people...bahala na ang subjects. Bahala na si God humampas sa pasaway na department.

On Love life and Obedience

THE GREATEST ADVICE

Don't date because you are desperate.

Don't marry because you are miserable.

Don't have kids because you think your genes are superior.

Don't philander because you think you are irresistible.

Don't associate with people you can't trust.

Don't cheat. Don't lie. Don't pretend.

Don't dictate because you are smarter.

Don't demand because you are stronger.

Don't sleep around because you think you are old enough and know better.

Don't hurt your kids because loving them is harder.

Don't sell yourself, your family, or your ideals.

Don't stagnate! Don't regress.

Don't live in the past.

Time can't bring anything or anyone back.

Don't put your life on hold for possibly Mr/Mrs Right.

Don't throw your life away on absolutely Mr Wrong because your biological clock is ticking.

Learn a new skill.Find a new friend.

Start a new career.

Sometimes, there is no race to be won.

Only a price to be paid for some of life's more hasty decisions.

To terminate your loneliness, reach out to the homeless.

To feed your nurturing instincts, care for the needy.

To fulfill your parenting fantasies, get a puppy.

Don't bring another life into this world for all the wrong reasons.

To make yourself happy, pursue your passions and be the best of what you can be.

Simplify your life. Take away the clutter. Get rid of destructive elements: abusive friends, nasty habits, and dangerous liaisons.

Don't abandon your responsibilities but don't overdose on duty.

Don't live life recklessly without thought and feeling for your family.

Be true to yourself.

Don't commit when you are not ready.

Don't keep others waiting needlessly.

Go on that trip. Don't postpone it.

Say those words. Don't let the moment pass.

Do what you have to, even at society's scorn.

Write poetry. Love Deeply. Walk barefoot. Dance with wild abandon.

Cry at the movies. Take care of yourself.

Don't wait for someone to take care of you.

You light up your life.

You drive yourself to your destination. No one completes you - except YOU.

It is true that life does not get easier with age.

It only gets more challenging.

Don't be afraid. Don't lose your capacity to love.

Pursue your passions.

Live your dreams.

Don't lose faith in your God.

Don't grow old. Just grow YOU!

When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your life that you'll never get back.

Your time is your life. That is why the greatest gift you can give someone is your time.

Relationships take time and effort, and the best way to spell love is T-I-M-E because the essence of love is not what we think or do or provide for others, but how much we give of ourselves.

--Rick Warren, The Purpose Driven Life

Haha! I remember some people I know who are desperate to find a partner, or , another way around, married or already have kids at a very early age. This kind of news really makes my heart break.The Lord Jesus Christ prepared a LIFE for us, only if we loose our lives for Him. And having a married life is not the end point...its just a beginning of obeying God together.Besides, LIFE WORTH LIVING IS A LIFE LIVED FOR GOD. If we realize how much God gave and endured for us, we can't do anything but OBEY.Of course, everybody wants to end up in a happy ending. I have also seen people who waited for God, and had an abundant life. Not that they became rich or had romantic life together, but they have a life that seeks and obeys the Lord. Oh well, ‘nuff said. God bless us all.

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This was my reflections last year. Right now, my new reflection on lovelife is OBEDIENCE.Obedience not to the flesh but Obedience to God who directs the path of two people who loves Him and together would work out His plans. I thought this is freaky...hehehe...I'm not sure. But I like this kind of love story. I hope we would all learn this kind of obedience even in this portion of our lives. I thank the Lord for people who are close to my heart who did this. Accepting the love of their lives by obeying God. I have so much to learn.

Sprinkle of Grace

Yehey! I'm seeing sprinkle of grace this past few days. Thanking Him for His love and simple,meaningful gifts and Healing. I've experience once again torn in my flesh,I had pain in my lower back. I became paranoid thinking either it is a pelvic bone or kidney problem. The excruciating pain I've experienced is causing my back to arch, and its so awful I had to lay in bed. I never thought that this would be this painful because in the past I've been experiencing it but it just last for a while.But I'm experiencing the from June 5 until last tuesday.

I am convinced last tuesday that I needed check-up. Then started my worries. I texted people to pray for my health and am overwhelmed with their response.And for that, I'm grateful in the Lord for giving me people who cares and prayed and is praying for and with me.

My young nurse friends are so concerned on my health, so is my med close friends. I can say that they will be a good public servants someday because thay have a heart that cares. God bless them and I love them.

Also, our staff personally visited me that tuesday when I'm experiencing this pain.Her presence means a lot. She is my angel sent by God that time. She even went with us to the clinic for check up last wednesday. I had my urine and stool test,Blood chem and bone x-ray. The doc who checked on me is cute...hehehe...

Now, the results of the tests are ok. except for the bone x-ray that will be out next week. Meaning, the pain that I'm experiencing is due to my bones. This morning, Before I took the results of the tests, my prayer is that if they have found something wrong in me, may it be manageable to cure, I don't like bad news on my health. Because I'm also health conscious as my worship to God. To be ill because of my own doing is a sin. For He desires my body to be healthy and to do His will effectively and efficiently.

I hope to know what's wrong inside me. I hope there will be ways to minimize the pain I'm experiencing.

Confession: Our staff asked me if I cried because I'm sick and nanay is not beside me?

Answer: Yes I cried. But not because nanay is not around. Because I felt God's overwhelming presence in the midst of the extreme pain I am experiencing. Indeed, He is so close to the broken and crushed. He is so merciful, in suffering I found joy, because Jesus is with me. Praise be to our Lord Jesus who bore our sin,brokeness and frailty.

***thanks ate! for taking time knowing and checking out on me and knowing my deepest heart's desires. love you!***

Promises... Broken pROMISES...Pwe.

Grr...nababanas talaga ako kapag inaassure ako sa mga bagay na dapat mangyayari and in the end tataasan ka ng boses at sasabihin na hindi pwede. Pwe! Ang ayos ayos ng usapan tapos magkaka-gaguhan...sorry for the word. Yung bagay na hinihingi ko ay hindi malaki. And that thing that I am asking for is what I need. It is not a want. Ang capricho ko, hindi ko ginugulo magulang ko, pinaghihirapan ko yun. Naiinis lang ako sa feeling na kailangan ko magmakaawa. Sa Diyos lang ako humihingi ng awa. Kaya naiinis ako sa mga tao na feeling nila may utang na loob ako sa kanila.

*hingang malalim Lorah...hinga...

I'm home...

...and missing them. rest muna ako.

Summer Adventure Posts

summer adventure story coming soon!

Communion and Religiosity

Communion Sunday kanina sa Capiz Evangelical church. Hindi catch-y sa akin ang theme ng church about "SUCCESS". Ayaw ko kasi ang prosperity preaching. Jesus calls us the other way.The way of the cross. But thank God for people who are faithful to God's Word and delivered God's message to God's people the way He wanted it. The story is about Zaccheus.Jesus story with this little guy has also been my favorite. Praise God for new insights and affirmed reflections on Jesus' words,..."I came to seek and save which was lost." A lost thing for me is something that is primarily owned by someone and for some reasons was lost. It is valued, It would not called and considered "lost" if the owner would not bother to search for that thing. The speaker who was a woman and the Church missionary shared to us that this kind of being "lost" is the cause of sin that we lost our dignity as human,our capicity to reach to God is lost, our relationship to God, to other humans and God's creation is lost. (medyo mabigat na theology, but she just shared these reasons how lost are we) The message was really a WOW! Kakalasing. Amazing.

Then, Communion time. I'm not excited like this before. Sabik talaga ako magcommunion. Not that I feel so good before Him today, but I never felt this feeling before na sobrang excited and meaningful ang pagreremember sa body and blood of Jesus Christ.He is so good. 2 months ako hindi nakapagcommunion. Not that I'm pasaway,Nasa mga lugar lang ako kung saan ako nilead ng Lord. Apparently, Hindi ko naabutan ang makaattend sa church na may communion. And then yun nga, napaka Holy ang moment that time.I asked for forgiveness before our Lord before taking communion. What matters that time was that I am like a child na sobrang excited to have fellowship and meet her Father.

Then, kanina sa bahay, beside our apartment there's a catholic church.Lakas nga ng bell e. Medyo napasilip ako ano ginagawa ng mga tao,Tapos na ang misa.But i saw them praying.Pwede kong isipin na nag-e-SR sila (Spiritual Retreat), I'm humbled. They have reverence for the church.I pray may God grant their deepest desire, and that is, God would reveal Himself to them.Haha!Minsan dito palpak ang Protestants. Libangan manita ng church,Hindi na nakikita ang Diyos ng church.or nabublur lang sa kapalpakan ng kapatiran. Mahirap mag Unlearn minsan. I don't blame people who drifts away,Pero dapat bumalik rin sila sa stream.Stream of unity of the Body of Christ. But those who cause division sana mag-isipisip na.Bka ibang espiritu meron yun.hahaha!

sermon ko rin sa sarili ko ito.Galing talaga ni Lord. Tinuturuan pa rin Niya ako.

Before ang madugong Reflections...Usapang Angel muna.hehehe

Hindi ko pa tapos ang book review ko...Este, Reflections and Response sa book na bigay sa akin ni Pastor Rex. Kaya ito muna. Panggulo ng utak, thanksgiving as well.

Sumakay kami ng Cebu Pacific plane papunta dito sa Roxas. Infairness, ma-alog siya. Pasaway ako. Hindi ako nagchew ng gum. Naidlip lang ako. Pero iniimagine ko na punta na ako ng heaven...Sana diredirecho na.hahahah!Sarap pala ng feeling. At may naalala ako.Some eon years ago...

"Mag- aral ka na lang sa PATTS.Sama tayo."

" Ha?!? ok ka lang?!? ang cute-cute ko kaya para mag PATTS"- I laugh.

Ahahaha...asan na kaya yung taong yun? he really dreams of being a pilot someday. Kaya lang di na siya nagpaparamdam sa akin ngayon. Di pa kami nagkikita. Haay...i shoo him away. I didn't mean it. Hindi lang siya sanay sa akin.Kumusta na kaya siya? In fairness, he was my angel when I was to give up on myself and what I believe. He came to my life and made a difference, not by telling me what to do, but seeing the difference in his life by following his Lord. Ngayon, wala akong balita sa kanya. I hope to hear from him soon. I hope He still hold on.I hope He's still my angel. Nevertheless, I thank God for angels He provide whenever I feel alone, or am about to give up. In the new phase of my life,sino kaya ulit ang ibibigay ng Lord na "angel" ko? I also pray the good Lord continue to sustain the angels of my life.

Hope he reads this.ahahahah!

Punta kami ng "Baybay" mamaya...hope to see the sun sets sa dagat...

Broke and Broken

Dito na ako sa Capiz. Kasalukuyang nakatunganga sa bahay na nirent ni nanay. Nandun na ang mga gamit. Tumulong ako sa pag aayos ng ilang mga gamit, pero makalat pa rin.Kasi may mga gamit pa na si nanay ang dapat mag-ayos. Masaya ang bonding ko with my sibs. Food trip. Hanggang ngayon ay naloloka ra rin ako sa kapaligiran ko. Ang main city ay kaya ko libutin at lakarin. At isa pa, Walan magawa kasi we're broke. Si nanay, wala sa sarili nung bigyan kami ng pera.Aparently, yung pera na dapat baon namin ay nagastos sa Boarding Fee ng Cebu Pacific. Kumusta naman yun diba? Goodluck sa amin. Hindi pa kami iniwan ng pera ng tita ko nung isang araw.hehehe...no choice, kundi ang magbolahan kami sa bahay, at maghanap ng pwedeng pagkain na mapagtitripan. Kaya lang sa walang humpay na bonding namin, gusto parin ng soul ko to spend a time alone with my Maker...

May pasaway ako na kilala na nagcomment about sa Capiz.Sabi nya, hindi raw nababagay si Lorris sa Capiz.She can do greater things at wag raw sana maconfine sa Capiz. Low daw ang quality. Alam ko ang point nya. Pero naintindihan ko ang nanay ko. She is more conern sa character building than the skills that we will learn. Kaya siguro ayaw kami mag UP. hehehe...
So yun, back to the topic. Basically,that person does not know our case fully. Bahala siya sa buhay nya. Basta kami, sumusunod lang sa Panginoon.

Muli, I'm contemplating of being alone, pero when I'm seeing my sibs na masmapapabuti sila sa ganitong set up, I'm thankful and I'm turning ok. Lupit ng Lord ko. Ganito pala ang ibig sabihin na leaving my family and follow Him. E ang kaso, buong family kami ang magfollow sa Lord, kaya we will leave one another. hahaha!!!

Being broke and broken...bagong learning na naman ito. Sana maing worthwhile ang stay ko dito.May i go back home renewed,with new hopes and blessings.



***Thanks for praying for us. pray for us still. God bless you

dami ko na pwede STATEMENT ng T-shirt...hehehe

No One Can Bug me anymore...




'coz I'm DEAD.





Gets?!?

Ito muna...

Grabe...the Lord is moving through the prayers of His saints. The Lord is answering prayers and hearts desire kahit nakahibernate ako sa ministry na mahal ko. Hindi Nya ako kailangan. He is moving in the hearts of the people. I am just here to be faithful.

Kagabi hanggang kaninang 4:30am,(May 19-20) we had overnight prayer meeting. Talagang inordain ni God ang oras na iyon for us to pray kahit na majority namin ay wala sa hwistyo (tama ba spelling?). Marami kasing worries at mga kabusyhan. Effort talaga ang umattend. I'm the one who facilitated the prayer time. But i also asked for assistance kay kuya alvin and ka Lolit to facilitate the prayer meeting. Umpisa pa lang, I am intimidated by the enemy. ang likod ko parang kinokoryente,tulala at hindi ko feel ang preparations. But still, He is faithful and merciful. Hindi Nya hahayaan mahumiliate Name nya. I asked for forgiveness. I'm still willing to be used by my Lord. Feelings ko lang nagbabago, pero buo na ang loob ko na maglingkod.

Some people in the groups are testing my patience. I asked God to give me extra grace to extend to them. "Kinakayanan lang nila ako kasi bata ako..." kaya go lang. I'm doing this for the Lord. I'm focusing my attention sa mga taong willing makinig.

Basta...so may mga ganung drama. What blessed me was when I have the chance makipagkwentuhan sa ibang youth (highschoolers) in between prayer times and see how God is moving in their lives. Sabi ng isang nakausap ko, "ate, tinatanong ako ng ibang kaibigan ko bakit pa ako nagsisimba dito, ano raw ang mapapala ko dito? sabi ko, marami ako natutunan dito at nasa mabuti akong kamay kaya wala ako nakikitang masama na nandito ako..."
waaaah!!! I'm so humbled and amazed. Ang Diyos ang may gawa nun!!! hibernate ako sa youth ministry nitong mga nakaraang buwan kasi wala ako naririnig na feedback kung gusto o ayaw ng youth fellowship. Kanina rin...ang ibang youth ay humihiling na mag youth camp kami!!!! TODO na ito! this is exactly what i want to happen.grabe! ansaya.

Nung malapit na matapos ang Prayer time, tinuruan namin sila ng song na may blending, yung " You are Holy" medyo malabo ang pagkakasulat ng lyrics sa acetate para sa projector, kaya ang mga oldies ay nag-jijinarte na hindi nila mabasa. I understand na hindi nila mabasa and i apologize for that.Technical error yun,pero kailangan bang paulit-ulit na sabihin na hindi mabasa? I saw a smile on nanay's face nung kinanta na namin ang song, in the midst ng reklamo ng ibang nanay. Natuwa siya sa essence and meaning ng song na winoworship si God in different names. Tanggal lahat ng inis ko sa mga mareklamo. Nung nakita ko nanay ko na nakangiti sa akin means na may saysay ginagawa ko...what more pa kaya ang Father? I long to see Him pleased with me. haayy..

Victorious ang Panginoon that night. I just pray na maging sensitive ang ibang anak ng Diyos sa leading ng Holy Spirit at bawas-bawasan ang reklamo at sobrang salita. Sometimes, God desires His children to shut up and listen.

Marami pang kwento...ito muna.

Re-Learning

I'm re-learning to....
...Trust
...be gracious
...be patient
...persevere
...Endure
... pray fervently
...Sacrifice
...Love
...focus on Christ alone.
...SURRENDER

I desire You my Master. Reign in me.

Blessed Be...

The Lord giveth...The Lord taketh away...Blessed be the name of the Lord!

Iniwan na naman ako ng isang angel sa buhay ko.

Aalis na silang lahat.

Ganito talaga buhay, need to get over this.

Kapag may dumadating, sabay-sabay..pag may aalis, alis silang lahat.

It makes me human.Teaches me to trust Him more.

I love you Lord! thank you for giving me angels...wala po ako reklamo if you will take them away. You are my Lord.

Hope to see you again Bebem...I love you.

You don't deserve this...

Missin you so much...You don't deserve what you are experiencing right now. I love you...hoping for your quick healing, of the body and soul.

Centre of My Life

Centre of My Life
From Hillsong London "Shout God's Fame"

Let my walk speak loud, and my words be true
Let my life be whole, with my eyes on You.
Lord I'm stepping out, from the comfort zone
Letting go of me, holding on to You

Freedom comes, when I call You Lord
You are Lord, my God!

You are the centre of it all
The universe declares in awe
Your majesty, I surrender all
I make You centre of my life
Lord I respond with all I am
You placed in me the song of heaven's melody
Your majesty, I live to sing Your song

I have found Your peace, it replaces any fear
You have done it all, I can trust in You.
Lord I'm stepping out, from the comfort zone
Letting go of me, holding on to You

This is your song,that brings healing to this land
This is your song, not mine
It is Your song, that brings freedom

This is my song of the moment...grabe talaga ang Lord.Pinapatulan ako sa mga panalangin ko na alam ko mahirap...But what can I do? my heart and the Spirit of the Lord helps me to utter these kinds of prayer. Inaalis nya ako sa comfort zone. nakakatakot. Grabe bunuan sa panalangin...but I really love my Lord kahit marami ako shortcomings...May He continue to be with me. Days from now, my family will be away from me.After 20 years of existence, akala ko gradual ako ihihiwalay ng Lord sa family ko, eto ako...nagpapakatapang, but the Lord knows what's in my heart. He is training me to be away from my comforts and fully trust in Him. Yes, i must learn to trust. Parang akong isang bata na nasa gutter lang lagi ng swimming pool when daddy is telling me to let go and swim with Him. I still worship Him in what He is doing to my life and in my brokenness...

What happened to me?

I got this short reflection from a friend from her blog.

SOWING WITH TEARS Is what I'm doing right now. Though I scatter the seed while weeping, I believe in the harvest.

I was doing this before. What happened to me? i allowed my hurt to subdue me...I should re-learn this thing once again. Only through bended knees we can draw people in the Lord. This is not an easy thing to do. In fact,it hurts. Through hurts and pruning from Him and in the ministry can I can grow and be a tree that is planted in the waters and bears fruit.

Focus dear...you have so many things to do. But rest in God's care. You are loved.